Monster inside

How could I commit this treason
of feeling alone when lying in your arms
You are so right for me
and I am left wandering in my imagination
mysterious feelings
walking in this void through the crowded streets
no one notices I am crying on the inside
like I lost something in my pride
and yet you are there with your heart in my hand
loving so easily
needing so little in your independence
Guilty pleasures in the way you treat me
Carry me on my hero and pay no mind to the tears
they are formed of old pain not brought by you
You smile to me not knowing the storm in my mind
racing a losing course
Passion between us like a tidal force
your breathy voice echoing in my mind
with a song always on your tongue
offering so easily a smile
life in your eyes and so much to give
perhaps my disdain
is in my perception of my own inadequacy
feeling that the pedestal you put me on is too high
and when I inevitably fall
it will break me
where will you take me?
is this how I'm supposed to feel
when I found exactly what I was looking for?
why am I keeping score
when all I want to do
Is let you in
fling the portal wide
with reckless abandon
and be joyous in the moment
this one precious instant with you
and trust the freedom of your caress
feeling now that I am such a mess
You are my hero
Carry me a while while i rest in your embrace
and bury my face
in your faith in me
praying all the while
that you won't see
the hopeless monster inside

New Found Fire

You danced into my life
like a firefly
welcoming the spring
from a cold stark winter
Alone yet full of you
I am like a river
cascading over the precipice
to become a waterfall
not caring
what may lie around the bend
Knowing you are with me
and thus I can conquer
Though I envelope you in my arms
I take shelter in your embrace
closing my eyes I see your face
and feel your soft lips pressed to mine
Your voice echoing in my mind
like a dream
and I am inspired
with each new revelation in you
adding fuel to the fire
I want to take you higher
white hot yet cool to my touch
I welcome you
into my room
like the sunlight
on a cool summer morning
ever embracing the chance
to explore the mystery of you
as the shadow of doubt
crosses your brow
like a cloud to block the sun
I will be there giving heat
to burn through
with sincerity and passion
razing to cinder
all that may come between us
The avatar made servant
under the yolk of your casual glances
It may be too risky
to fly so high on uncertain wings
but I'll take my chances
far above the soft billowy clouds
of casual acquaintance
Like a phoenix I catch fire
gathering speed to fly higher
knowing that in this moment
the song in my breast is you.

Wings

The life in your eyes
shines through the overcast skies
of my awareness
warming my soul by your firelight
Can you know the storm brewing inside me?
Can you mend the wounds
left by the battles I have fought
and lost?
Left for dead, alone,
lame on the field of despair
lifting my eyes skyward
You are there...
Carry me my hero
wings of sorrow
cannot lift me from the mire

Sleeping

I walk in the land of the sleeping
Shadows cast by the setting sun
unmoving forms lay all around me
a glimmer of recognition that I am the One
Their eyes are glazed over
with the dreams of loss and pain
a field of sorrows makes the landscape of their mind
grasping the hand of a would be champion
I kneel to his side to offer solace
his nightmare blocks the way again
and I am rejected, unwelcome
I will try again or find another
in this sea of the lost
dreaming mankind